mocha chocha

6.30 am - got up…told mum going to mmu to pay d hostel deposit…

7.00 am - mandi…sejuk gileee…

7.30 am - sent mum to work…

9.30 am - went back to sleep..was hoping J would call but he didnt…so off to  bed again..

10.30 am - got up n siap2 nk gi mmu…

11.00 am - picked alia up n off to mmu…

11.30 am - arrived in mmu…went to d bank…called syiks n dia baru nk kuar umah…so we went n pay d deposit 1st..

12 pm - gi hostel nye office..but it was closed..but i can hear people talking kat dlm…saje la tu malas nk layan org…budus

12.10 pm - off to alamanda sbb rase cam nk gi membazir kan duit on anything…masuk reject shop…nothing yg best pun…tp sbb nk  membeli so bought a purple track bottom..keh3…

12.45 pm - dh lape…n mc d dh bukak so gi lunch kat mc d ngan alia…had a "grilled chicken foldover"..nice la..sbb lape so everything pun sedap…

1.00 pm - continue shopping…went to FOS plak…cari murah2 dulu kalau takde yg best baru amik memahal…looked for an orange baby t..tp takde yg menarik…end up buying a cute purple tee…hihihi purple lg…

1.30 pm - kuar from FOS masuk Somersetbay….aaahhh comel gile…tp budget tak cukup…so postpone dulu somersetbay …continue finding an orange tee…tp takde yg best…abis dh sume kedai masuk…susah tul nk cari orange tee…maybe next time…

still in d mood to shop…ngeh ngeh ngeh…wanna go get shoes n bags n jeans n more tees…

till then…toodles

been feeling really down this past few days…but i have to be strong for my own good…feelling down all the time wont help solve d prob…same goes to keeping it to urself…but wat if u r left alone to solve it? where is help when u need 1?why do people have to change? to the better or worse…its still d same…why cant they stay as they used to be?…why do people forget? forget about the kind of life they once had..forget how to love..why?

i used to have a life..a life that was filled with laughter, love, happiness, sadness… i was never alone… theres always someone with me..to share my ups n downs…to listen to my every complaints even when he doesnt want to…give me hopes..comforts me…

now..i feel empty, lonely…theres no one to talk to…to share…to listen to my every story that i have to tell…nobody seems to care no more…

everybody has a dream…but how much do u really have to sacrifice in order to fulfill ur dream? ur entire life? what if its not worth it? what if by the u achieve ur dreams, u lose every other things in ur life that used to matter? will u be able to replace it? will it ever be the same? what if u dreams dont come true n yet u still lose other things? will it hurt? what if 1 day, u realized that u want ur old life back..will u get it? what if along the way to ur dreams, u forgot about the people u care for a very long time, will they be able to forgive u?

THINK….

bought mummy a set of lancome for her birthday (20/05/2005…happy birthday mum :* )…lancome is doing a promotion now…buy lancome product n get a make over n picture taken for only RM20..

went to Midvalley with parents n sis today to get some stuffs..n mummy decided to get another shade of lipstick..so went to the lancome booth…the sales lady remembered me n dad n she asked me to go do the make over…she even asked me to do it before (d day we bought mummy’s present) but i was a mess…juz got back from work n was still in my baju kurung…but today when she asked me to, i was so excited to go ahead with it..*ihiks*..it could be my only chance to have a make over..who knows…so i went on with it…make up…hair do(nothing really…juz straighten my hair..hairdresser wanted it to look natural coz she said that my hair is long n syg if i would want it to be tied up)…n took pictures…tried on different outfits n positions…at the end, i can only take home 1 free photo…have to pay another RM30 for each photo o RM150 for 5 photos in a cd…syg nye tak dpt the rest …but it was a fun experience…gonna go do it again some other time…*ihiks*

oh..n i bought new pair of shoes n 3 pairs of earings for RM10…*hihihi*

there goes another day of my holiday…off to malacca tomorrow..toodles

went to primavera n got a new pair of shoes..gonna go get more later…hihihihi..

what is love without the other half?

what is joy without someone to share with?

what is sacrifice without being appreciated?

i count the days that we have spent apart

i’ve got a bad liver and a broken heart

theres no salvation in the comfort of you

i finally realized that ur tearing me apart

so help me, save me, tell me that the end is near

im done with you

you make my life competely miserable

you drove me to the edge, you’ve caused me all this pain

but i’ve always loved u cos ur so special

im broken n im alone n i cant maintain

Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah
I’m giving up on everything
Because you messed me up
Don’t know how much you
Screwed it up
You never listened
That’s just too bad
Because I’m moving on
I won’t forget
You were the one that was wrong
I know I need to step up and be strong
Don’t patronize me
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

[Chorus:]
Have you forgotten
Everything that I wanted
Do you forget it now
You never got It
Do you get it now
Yea yea yea yea yea
Yea yea yea yea yea
Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah

Gotta get away
There’s no point in thinking about yesterday
It’s too late now
It won’t ever be the same
We’re so different now
Yea yea yea yea yea

[Chorus]

I know I wanna run away
I know I wanna run away
Run away
If only I could run away
If only I could run away
Run away
I told you what i wanted I
I told you what i wanted
What I wanted
But I was forgotten
I won’t be forgotten
Never Again

[Chorus (2x)]

Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah
Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah
Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah
Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah

hari ni penat la…

penat la hari ni..

ari ni saye penat..

penat la saye ari ni…

ni saye penat la..

07/05/05…

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU to kak yong & abg As..congratulations..enjoy ur married life to d fullest..

had d chance to hang out with fakh, nuar n bain in jb..finally..thnx u guys sbb picked me up that nite..hihihi bain blanje seafood lg…bile la nk merase bain blanje lg ntah..hihihi

to all mummys, maks, ibus, mamas, bondas, etc…HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!!! shayang shangaakkk!!