mocha chocha

1 week down…2 more weeks to go…freaking bored…n wat do u do when ure bored? u spend ur time on ur blog…eventho there nothing to tell…sigh!…went to meet sriraam last thursday only to know tht we have to redo everything…yes..i mean EVERY-SINGLE-THING of our fyp…"take it as a challenge"..huh!…stupid sharaf..u think u know everything is it? fuck u!!!! u scare me..damn u..i so hate u sharaf!!!! y in the freaking world u have to be the moderator??? HATE U!!!!

enof of that…hmm..since sriraam wanted us to redo everything, we r gonna spend 3 whole days (chinese new yr) of our break to record the brain waves again…so much of a break eh? well..at least i got somthing 2 do…jz wish tht we’ll b d only group there…i REALLY cant take the noises…it’ll make me burn up inside n it’ll definitely shows on the outside…u wudnt wanna be talking to me at tht time..

my dad had been planning to go on holiday trip with my uncles n aunties some time next week…probably to kemaman,terengganu…not sure if its really gonna happen o not..juz have to wait…

result will be out next week…haih..scary..i didnt think i did well…but wat d heck..tried my best..i surrender..sigh!

oh..theres a new member in the family…her name is allysha bibi..2 month old…2nd daughter of my cousin…

im bored

i miss you bunny boy

so, its christmas…public holiday…merry christmas to those celebrating…its 3 days after my birthday..didnt celebrate like really celebrate coz i have fyp report to submit…still working on it..thank goodness the supervisor posponed it till tuesday..but still..much to be done..corrections n all..has to be perfect since sharaf is d moderator..we r d lucky ladies huh?!..saiko!…wonder watsit gona be like for the presentation..damn…im scared..
btw..went out with bain n fakhrul on the 18th to celebrate my birthday which was 4 days earlier..went to aquaria klcc..bain’s treat..hihihi..fun…but it wud be better if they have more fishes…i mean add in  those sharks…the whole family..hihihihi…
the night of my birthday…was busy tryng to finish up the fyp report..had a replacement class at 8-10pm…went out rite after class to go on a mission to kfc with beloved roomate, syikin (wuhuhu)..went to alamanda’s kfc..but they had run out of chicken..didnt want anything else but kfc..so headed to serdang..it was our luck that it was still open..syikin bought a bucket of kentucy fried chicken (15 pieces)..weee..syikin’s treat..lg la "weeeee"..aahaha..tq syikin..muah muah…kesian alia xde…kalau x leh join kitorg mkn kfc 15 ketul..
spent d whole night finishing fyp…slept at 6 am d next day…
went out to mid for my birthday celebration at 10.30 am..god knows how sleepy i was..i got a XOXO heartbeat perfume n a pink rose..everything was pink…tq tq…muahx3…and i ate at chillis..had flame-grilled steak, bottomless apple juice, free brownies..the chillis staffs were supposed to sing me a birthday song..but i came at d pick hour so they ran out of staffs..sad…but i had a blast though..regardless of how tired n sleepy i was…went back to mmu at 4…went straight to d lab to join syikin…that night still on the fyp report…again slept at 6am..got up at 8.20am..printd the report n handed it to d lec only to knw that it had been postponed til tuesday…if only i knew… i cud have slept..
went back home tht evening…still..cudnt sleep..fyp report..wat else..up till today, there r still few things to repair..gonna submit it 2mrw..hope that it’ll be ok so tht we wont have to do anymore corrections..we wanna sleepppp!!! oh well…there’s still assignments to submit..damn…

this week is the 4th o 5th week of class…pretty bz but i can still handle it..i think..eventho classes r only from monday till wednesday, there stil fyp to complete…damn…no more saturdays for me have to be in the lab for brain recording for my fyp…its fun but wen u got stuck in a place for too long, it’ll starts to get on ur nerves..nothing wil be fun anymore..still figuring out wat exactly i have to do for d fyp..things are going rather slow i might say…tests are coming up next week…n theres assignments to submit n tutorials..i miss my "no-class" life

raye is jz around d corner…

makin hari time seems to move a lil faster..

tetau jer dh raye…

but im not feeling it..

semangat dh kurang i guess..

frens dh merate ntah gi memane..

yg bz ngan kerje…yg study ntah kt mane…yg jauh..yg tk keep in touch..yg keep in touch tp online jer…

raye will never be like it was before anymore..

dis raye..ain will be extremely bz with her sister’s wedding…

n farah too i guess..

fakhrul? ade open house lg ker?

nuar? ain kate nuar jauh..

bain? tunggu ko turun kl je la baru jumpe..

najwa? bz ngan i dont knw wat..work o bf o wat ever..

amie? ilang dh..tk tau gi mane…bz w study like always kot..

abg wan? guess u’ll be with ur frens huh? o with ur family back in melake n kedah hah? o probably bz w ur sister’s wedding jgk..

salwa? depan rumahj er…tp susah yg amat nye nk nmpk muke dia…

ash, sarah, farahana, fir, fatin? sume umah dekat2…tp sume susah nk jumpe..

adi, zul, onte, mayo? baru kenal…probably we wont be "raye"ing sesame..

aaaahhhh..bosan..

anyway…

selamat hari raye…mintak ampun for everything dr 1st day kenal until today…

freaking bored..

cant sleep…

end up watching The Longest Yard…

FOOTBALL…FOOTBALL…FOOTBALL

there’s a lot of "i like" guys in it…

goldberg, diesel, nelly…loads of other yummilicious guys…

n not to forget

stone cold…i lurve!!!

men in uniform…I’M LOVING IT!!

done with charmed and desperate housewives..

cant wait for d next episode of OTH…

Sometimes they come back huh?…ppppfffftttttt….

u have got to be kidding me…

y cant friends remain friends no matter how ugly it was?

y must there be an end to everything?

y do we run from problems rather than facing it?

y do we run from people?

y do i have so many questions with no answers?

i’ll be quiet now…like i always have..always

i’ll just keep it to myself…

dont forget to come visit me at the mental hospital…just in case

toodles

had not been feeling really well these couple of days.constant headaches, feeling weak, wanting to throw up, blablabla…

it all started with this thing in my throat.tot i cud get it out everytime i brushed my teeth but still the thing is there and i cud feel it growing..tried to get it out a couple of times but failed.thought itll go away by itself but i was wrong.lil that i know, the thing was getting worse by the day.

didnt notice that my tonsil was swelling until i noticed a white spot on my tonsil.checked again that nite, as i was starting to freak out, there were 2 white spots now.went to dad to check it for me coz i tot i was imagining it.he saw wat i saw.that nite, i cudnt go to sleep.things were running through my head…if i were to go n see the doctor,he might have to remove my tonsil..or its some kind of a cancer..blablabla..that sort of things..

went to d doctor yesterday morning for a check up n to know what im having..sadly, he cant see the spot..all he saw was my swollen gum…duuuhhhh!!! cant u see the tooth underneath it?? finally, he saw my swollen tonsil plus the spot i think…thank goodness u r not blind yet!!…all he said was "oh..its tonsil..its tonsil"….n i was like.."is that all? is that all u cud say? i was freaking out u freak!! everyone has tonsil..but wat is wrong with mine??" but of course..i cudnt let that out in words..ha3…but im satisfied with that..dont wanna know anything else..like "oh btw, u’re gonna die in 10 days bcoz of that tonsil of urs"..so..he gave me this antibiotics, difflams (dis sucking med that’ll make everything in ur mouth go numb) n a bottle of gargle thingie.

the spot is gone now but my tonsil is still swells.hope im getting better and not getting sick any time soon..

oh..here’s a pic of my swollen tonsil with white spot on it..enjoy!!

1st day of Ramadhan…n im staying home w chores…

HAPPY FASTING PEOPLE!!!!

coming up next month…RAYEEEEE!!!.

cant wait..hihihi

toodles

                            HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYAH!!!!

sorry ar..i lost count of ur age..ahahaha…stopped counting at 50…so for me u r still 50 n not a yr older.never..love u bunch

sometimes i jz dont get it…wat is it with people n sticking their nose in my life? so wat if i wanna get a new hair cut o colour my hair green? so wat if im extremely close w a guy? who cares if im single o dating someone? y cant a guy n a girl be besfrens? y do people have to think tht there is more to it thn being besfrens? is there some kind of a rule that a guy n a girl cant be frens? they cant even be close? does it always hv to be love wen d 2 of them r close? so wat if im with someone? i didnt ask for ur money o ur time o anything tht hv got to do w u…im living my life d way i wanna live my life…n u shud too…i’ll tell u wat u shud knw n wat u shudnt knw…there r things in life tht we can share n there r things tht we jz cant share w everyone…only certain people can knw only if i want them to knw…

n yea..i do have a guy besfren…he was there wen i was at my worst…he helped in every possible way tht he can…he cheered me up wenever i was down…he was there wen i needed someone d most…eventhough i’ve only knwn him for a few months…i think i knwn him my whole life…

i am thankful for d frens tht i hv around me…u guys mean so much to me…i cudnt have been this strong if i was left alone.love u all sooooooo much!! *muuuaahhh*

currently listening to: breathe again - toni braxton

2 more weeks of working..yeay!!!!

im getting sick of waking up really early in d morning jz to be in a really boring place with nothing much to look at…n not much to talk about…but of course…no matter how boring a place can be…there’s always something tht i cant take my eyes off *batting eyelashes*…

seriously…im getting sick of the place…n surprisingly..im getting sick of the people too..n yeah..they r getting sick of having me around too..dont forget that…people dont always like u…theres always those who cant even look at u jz coz they dont knw u…to hell with them…*wahaha*

2mrw..Dr Sithi is coming over to pay me a visit..he wanted me to do a lil presentation on the company n wat i’ve been doing for d whole industrial training…damn ar…kene buat slides…benci2…

its almost 1.30am…off to bed now..or i wont b able to get up pg kang..

nitey nite…

btw..here’s something to share…

suke sgt lagu ni…hihihihi

"Behind These Hazel Eyes"

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin’ could go wrong
Now I can’t breathe
No, I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it, can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that’s left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
‘Cause I can’t breathe
No, I can’t sleep
I’m barely hangin’ on

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it, can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don’t cry on the outside
Anymore…

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it, can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it, can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes